ambigu

Bahasa adalah cara utama (atau satu-satunya?!) berkomunikasi yang disampaikan oleh satu pihak untuk diterima oleh pihak lainnya. Pihak yang menerima pesan akan mencerna bahasa sesuai dengan intepretasinya, intepretasi tercipta sesuai dengan pola pikir atau kepercayaannya. Jadi terkadang bahasa bisa bermakna ambigu yang isi pesannya bisa dibelokkan oleh pihak yang menerima. Bukan begitu??

Saya pernah membaca suatu artikel dari majalah tentang ambiguitas bahasa. Artikel itu membahas makna dari kata "atheis". Sebagian kelompok menafsirkan atheis sebagai "tidak percaya adanya Tuhan" sementara kelompok yang lain menafsirkannya sebagai "tidak percaya Tuhan". Kelompok yang pertama sama sekali tidak percaya adanya Tuhan, singkatnya mereka berpikir Tuhan itu tidak ada. Sementara kelompok yang kedua mengakui bahwa Tuhan itu ada tapi mereka tidak mau mempercayai apa pun yang dikatakan oleh Tuhan. Well, saya sendiri tidak terlalu paham kelompok mana yang benar karena dalam kepercayaan saya kedua kelompok itu sama-sama tidak benar dan akan terkena laknat Tuhan nantinya (Naudzubillah!). Tapi bukan itu inti dari pembahasan saya melainkan pembuktian dari ambiguitas bahasanya. Kedua pemahaman di atas bermakna beda dari bentuk kalimat yang hampir serupa yang ditafsirkan dari satu kata yang sama: "atheis".

Dalam bahasa sehari-hari saya sering menemukan kalimat yang dapat saya tafsirkan menyimpang dari maksud si pemberi pesan. Bahkan saya yakin saya sendiri sering melontarkan kalimat ambigu yang dapat dibelokkan oleh penerima pesan saya. Contoh yang saya sebut di atas adalah penyimpangan makna yang tanpa emosi. Bagaimana kalau pemberi pesan membuat kalimat ambigu yang pesannya dapat disalah-artikan oleh si penerima sehingga membuat sakit hati atau malah pertengkaran?

Contoh: A mengatakan pada B ketika mereka sedang bertemu, "saya merasa tidak senang saat ini". Intepretasi yang dapat diterima B:
1. A sedang tidak merasa senang saat ini dan penyebabnya berada diluar mereka
2. A sedang merasa tidak senang saat ini dan penyebabnya adalah B
3. A tidak merasa senang karena ia sedang bersama B saat ini yang arti lainnya adalah A akan merasa lebih senang kalau ia tidak sedang bersama B.
Hah...???!!! Bingung deh...

Ambigu oh ambigu....

Maka intepretasi saya atas kata "ambigu" saat ini adalah sesuatu yang mampu menyesatkan dan berpotensi bahaya.

Wassalam!

2009 !

It became a habit to write something in facing new year, I've posted twice before (2007, 2008)... So I'm gonna do the same this year, but wont be too long.

I'm gonna start by contemplating 2008; I have been more spender this year :P, less reading Quran, weaker faith, less worshiping, have learned quite much for my career (thanks to my generous but brilliant boss), met someone which finally erodes my constancy for being almost frigid (hehehe...), lost more friends (as more and more of them has got married), get older everyday with no guarantee in getting wiser, less tripping, more reading, very less hanging out, and so... and so...

Conclusion : I'm no really proud of my self in 2008! Except the nice part from my job and clearer path to the hitch (even though it's still a plan).

Next plan : Facing 2009 with blur resolution! Hahaha...

But I still have targets and dreams for next year. Some of them are:
1. I might should make up my mind for when I'm gonna continue my study. Thus I will make target and realize how much important is to do more saving!
2. As the path of entering new life is getting clearer, I think I should think more as a "woman"! (Oh my God!)
3. I know I should emend my faith and worshiping more... I keep losing my time.
4. I hope I can traveling more next year.
5. Do something big for my life hehehehe....
6. Drink more milk and exercise more for the sake of my back hahahahha...!!!

Nevertheless, there's no guarantee that I will fulfill all those targets!
But I still wish you happy New Year, folks! Enjoy in getting older!



*pic was taken from http://colorcubic.com/blog/2008/06/ *

changes...changes...changes...

It's been two weeks since I'm sharing carbon diokside with Jakarta's and Bekasi's citizens again. I'm still adapting the new me with the old old home. But even it's old everything seems new again to me, except for the thin oxygen which is forced to collide with pollutions, and the sky that never looks clear and so blue; things that u wont ever meet at village.I know I've changed cause everyone must change by time, and with that I also know that everything at the old old home have changed as well.

Starting from my house. The last time I came home I still found my dad working from Sunday to Friday, a condition that I've accepted since I was born; my big sister wont get bothered to stay at home as long as everyone like and didn't get bother to take care about her new house, she also still not able to drive even for a little car so she will depend on me as long as I'm home; and mom, while my dad is at work she would let her self busy going out for shopping or french coursing or managing her lil store. But now my dad has retired from his job and except if he has something to do outside or just to take his grand children to spin around, he will definitely be at home. And my big sis can not stay at my parents's for too long coz she has moved in to her own house which she needs to look after, and she and her husband have bought a car too which she drives it anywhere while her husband is out of town, and now I'm the one who have to seat in the back... hehehehe. And mom, since my dad is always at home she takes care of my dad full time. And my lil sis, she was oredi and still at Bandung before and after I got back from Aceh.

HOw about my friends? I haven't meet any of my friends at jakarta since I'm back until today. Even that I'm still jobless I'm quite busy for hunting jobs hehehe... So I hanged out with my friends today. Some of these girls who used to hang out with me, to shopping with, to sharing bed with (sometimes), to let her self stay at my house or me to stay at hers... now all of these gurls are married. Even if we used to hang out just us with no spouse, today all of them brought their hubby, even some oredi brought offspring, or at least showed up with her big belly. I'm definitely OK with that, not that I get bother or what... really!

And almost all of these girls, I know with whom they used to date with. I know their spouse. But somehow I made a stupid mistake today...

So there's this deary, let just call her Annie, I know that Annie used to date Tom, it's been years. The last time we met, Annie Tom and I, was 6 months ago and they said they were preparing their marriage perhaps when Annie has return from her job contract at Sulawesi which was about to start or maybe even in the middle of it. And the last news I know about her is that she finally got married last week, I tried to come but since the reception is too far and it was at night and I didn't have any friend to accompany me so I didn't manage to came. And today when I met her, I wonder why she doesn't show up with her husband, whom I thought is Tom. Then I apology to her for not able to came on her wedding, then she introduced me to a guy who is sitting in front of her. This guy mentioned his name, and I ask "who's this?" but he and Annie just mention his name again. I left them and mingle with other and simply (or stupidly) thought that maybe he's her cousin or what and still wondering why doesn't she bring Tom, her husband.

Then after some hours, as they have another place to catch up, Annie and her companion permit to leave. And I naively (or stupidly!) ask her "where's your husband???" while her companion was just right behind her. Then she said with bug eyed, "this is my husband!" ...

Oh... really. I know everyone must change and so as well everything. But somehow, some changes are so so unpredictable, which mostly surprised me pretty choking. And there always something chocking every time I get home from Aceh hihihihi....

Dear God, I surrender to U for any changes U let happen on me and my surroundings in my future, nevertheless I will try to keep it on the way that is good to U.

-d-

Biarkan aku terjaga saat semua mata memejam
Biar dan tinggalkan!
Aku ingin mengikuti kakiku kemana saja mereka berjalan
Akan kututup mataku
Biar tangan-tanganku yang meraba
Akan kutelan teriakku di setiap jatuh

Biarkan aku berlari bebas saat semua terbang melayang
Biarkan saja aku tertinggal
Aku ingin menikmati setiap jengkal bebasku
Aku masih punya waktu sebanyak sisa hidupku
Jangan batasi waktuku
Jangan paksa aku mengikatkan leherku

Biarkan kaki ini menari, berlari, meloncat
Aku bebas bergerak sesukaku
Sampai takdir datang memegang tanganku
Akan ku ikuti kemana pun ia membawaku
Seperti ia telah membawaku ke sini
Kemudian aku akan berlari, menari, melompat
Aku ingin menikmati setiap gerakku

Contradictory

The finger is bound, the heart still numb
This 15 millimeters white gold armour doesn't make me totally secure
Oh how I hate liar, but my mouth keeps spreading hoax to the whole mountain, spit it from one hill to another
I like my life, but hate my self!
As my mind keeps yelling "hell to love", my face fakes dazzling smiles everyday to show how I love love, oh can't you see that I'm in love?
But when all lights are down and the only noise is silence
Tears streaming down quitely to recall my fear
I can feel my numbness!
Even if I put many smiles in the face
Or say so many words, or write poems
Even silence can not hear the voice in my heart
There is still a cubicle of love in it
But there is hate in its love

I've done unpack!.

Hhh..after 12 hours on road, no AC, no bath, no facial cleanser cause I put it on my locked suitcase, and share sits with a couple with 2 y o kid who can't stop kicking me... I've finally arived at Gayo.
I miss home already! Hihi..

Btw, i'd like to complain about that moron airasia staf and its stupid system at the check-in that has made passangers to queue an hour instead of just ten minutes. They shouldn't hired imbeciles! Thanx to them, i've lost my precious last minutes with my family, and I even forgot to wish my mom happy birthday before I leave! Hah!

Happy birthday momy!

Anyway,thanx to mr.Aditrance who has brake in the terminal to give my bags that i left outside and saved me a lot of time hehe.. How the hell did he do that?! Super cool! Hihi..

So here I am, back to town with thousands hills. Zzzzzz...

Oi!

Untuk kepompong yang belum mau menjadi kupu-kupu
Untuk kecebong yang belum mau keluar dari air
Untuk daunan yang belum mau menyatu dengan tanah dan menjadi humus
Dan untuk malam yang belum mau menjadi fajar
Tolong hentikan waktu sejenak!
Bilang pada Adam, Hawa masih ingin bermimpi tentang bintang!

picture says better then words...

yah... sedikit telat ya, tapi gak apa lah........

H O P E

push me to the future
pull my mind to the past
my hair, my toe, my soul...
dancing for what is best for tomorrow
what is best for tomorrow?
tomorrow is blur but should be promising!

my new look blog!

I got this new template from a Spanish site, ha ha ha ...! wanna try?

http://blogandweb.com/category/plantillas-blogger/

but the problem is some of the links are in Spanish which I can't even understand! Can you speak Spanish?? Well, good luck then...


courtasy of ikramputra..., thanks!

The view from my office

9.30 AM at Blang Pegayon.
Eweuh pasien euy hari ni. Jadilah bengong di ruangan, dan alhasil jeprat jepret gak karuan...:-P

D !

I'm testing my blog! through mobile...

packing...packing...

packing is anoying! hehehehe.... coz I need to filter stuff I'm gonna bring to Aceh. This is a stuff packing for a year, but still dont wanna bring so much thing....

So here is the plan, tomorrow will leave jakarta to Aceh at 8.45 flight. Then... tuch down Banda Aceh probably at 11.45??? I dunno how many hours it takes from jakarta to Aceh... uh oh... i gotta go, to c my nephews at hospital...