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baiklah...
My dearest Izan,
YOU are wonderful, awesome, magic, ... you make me speechless for now and for so many times since the day you magically lived in my womb.
How can I not think you are magic, you start to speak some words that not just me who could understand before you were yet one year old. You speak almost crystal clear in months before you were two. You memorize Al Fatihah, Al Ikhlas, doa makan, doa tidur, doa perjalanan, doa berkendaraan while you're only 25 months old. I cant count how many rhymes you remember already... not that I'm not proud of that too. For every time you make me angry, you will close it by holding me and saying "maaf, Ummi" with your big eyes staring straight to mine. The most saddening time for me is when you said "maaf, Ummi..." when I asked you not to breastfeed for a while because I had nipple sore while you only wanted to breastfeed form one side only. You were sorry because you thought you have made me hurt... how can a one year old child understand that?!
You're magic!
I have promised my self not to stop breastfeed you until its time for you to wean. You knew it's time for you to wean when you turn two. I started to wean you before that. I started to wean you at morning. Then I start to wean you when we were not at home. Then I decided to only breastfeed you when you want to sleep and during it. Just few days after your second birthday I decided to wean you on your nap, which was not easy for you to accept that. But you only cried once. In two days after, few times you asked to be breastfeed before your nap, but stay cool when I said no. You understand. You learn.
You're awesome!
I don't mind to prolong our breastfeeding time few months after your second birthday. But I had nipple sore again, not because of your bite this time. But because I don't produce milk as much as I did. I think, this is really the time for us to totally wean. I explained you the whole thing. You accept that. You begin to sleep at night without breastfeeding. You only cried at the first night, which was easily calmed when I remind you why we have to wean.You understand. You learn. You're superb!
My dearest Izan,
I only breastfeed you for 2 years 1 month 27 days. Those are NOTHING compare your life time. Now that you're cool with all these weaning things... I'm not. I wish I could breastfeed you until I die... lol! During breastfeeding period, I am the only person you mostly need on earth. In anytime by now, I could easily loose that place. That is the sadness part of weaning to me. Just like you, I'm learning too.
Sweetheart,
I want you to know that you make me proud... so much! Many times I think that you're bigger then your body. Aren't you a magic? :) I hope you will always live your life in the way that makes me proud. I hope you will always be human above average in a positive ways... hehehe... Thus your dad told me to teach you in the way that is above average too. Well, I keep learning and working for it.
love you.....
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