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Woooah... it's been a while since my last post. I have been quite busy I guess. I was more busy at home then at office actually, good news that now my mom has finally got a maid so I can have a lot time for my self after dinner. And Billy is now back on field until five weeks ahead, so here I am free by my self.

So after 2 months and half of marriage minus 5 weeks for the time that Billy spent on field and also hours I spent at office while Billy off of his work, my brief conclusion about marriage is............. well it is.... unexplainable! :P I believe no one can make any conclusion about marriage. Oh, but if there is one word to describe what I feel now that will be "complete"!

Yup, complete is what I feel when I'm with my husband. And I realize it more recently. While Billy is on field it feels (how should I say it...) "numb" for every time I come back from work and not seeing him around. I say it numb cause it feels like when you're being anesthetized and some part of your nerves cant feel a sense so then brain can not receive stimulus completely like it used to, and you will feel like some senses are missing, it feels incomplete!

It feels funny when realizing it cause I thought I'm an independent humankind, not needing anyone that bad and should always be OK by my self. I guess I've entered the husband-and-wife-are-needing-each-other phase. And I find that wonderful!

Te quiero Bilbo, mi cariño!