hoppeless and pessimistic: the main path for loser!

“Sukses itu ga ada yang gampang Dianaaaa….”

I know it so much, understand the sentence really really deep. Nothing good comes easy… none or almost never. But I keep forgetting that idea and find my self almost frustrated every time I forget; very lame and embarrassing actually.

So I work with a pro, who has diving in this career for like twenty years or more, a specialist and perfectionist, a kind who almost think that mistake is a wry… oh…oh. Nah, it’s too much! Well it might be is on our case but a lil harmless mistake wont make us a sinner. And little harmless mistakes always appear in a beginner. And the most interesting part is that I am a beginner.

I know I shouldn’t write this post and keep acting like I’m a pro, but I just feel like I need to type this so it can be a memo for next days maybe when I’ve reached my success (optimistic is very important, my bro!); success is very uneasy indeed!

Comparing to my boss, who is my one and only rival in gaining “client” at office, I’m like plain milk compare to juicy creamy thick chocolate ice cream, or non stuffed biscuit to tiramisu. I’m a big zero while he’s a super hero! Low self esteem is my main problem recently. How can I beat La Tour Eiffel while I’m just a meaningless statue at a discreet park? Then low self esteem leads to pessimistic, while I know that pessimistic leads to failure, and failure is a pathetic path for loser. And L.O.S.E.R my bro, is the last thing I wanna be in this life.

Okay, I know that pessimistic is a prejudice toward God's will (quoted from Andrea Hirata). Who am I to make a prejudice toward the Almighty? So here is my point where I'm gonna reach my dream with full optimistic! Mistakes, failures, hopeless, anything u name it.... screw those words!!!!! I'm DiDi, as D is for dreamer so am gonna fight for my dream! May God be with me...............................................................