Back in those days... :)

A year ago if it was on holiday like today, back in Aceh, I would wake up at 7 mostly. Then start to work on my laundry; soak them and leave it while I play with Zila, the baby in the house. Bored playing with Zila, I would try to get online to the internet hoping there will be anyone whom I can chat with. But if there's no one to chat with, then I would start to clean my 3x4 meters room; swipe and mop the floor, make up the bed and stuff...

After all done I'd go back to the laundry thingy for washing and rinsing part which I actually hate coz it hurts my back, but with the sky so blue above my head and green hills on my back, doing laundry (no mater how plenty it is) can be so fun!

I mostly finish the laundry at 9 am. The next thing I used to do could be watching DVDs on my laptop, or just turn on itunes out loud and make my self a tea or coffee milk and seat on the balcony next to my room and enjoy the peaceful view alone; I love doing this so much!!!! I sometimes whispering my self how lucky I am while doing this hehehe...


Too bad that I dont have a good camera to take wide landscape picture, coz the view was so much more beautiful then what's on this pic. Of course! The house where I'm staying is mostly surrounded with rice field and then surrounded again with hills, actually the town is surrounded by hills so where ever u see u'll see hills, as the town is nicknamed with "town of thousand hills".


When it almost noon I'd finally get my self a not-so-cold-anymore shower. The water there was so chill, unless I have to take shower early in the morning for work I'd rather wait until almost noon or at least above 10 am. After showering I'd prepare to go somewhere. The primary destination is to my adopt family's house. Then spinning around the town with motorbike, to the hills, or rivers, or just spinning around without destination and finally buy my self a meal for lunch. Then go back home after ashar. And might make my self another drink and seat again on the balcony hahahaha.... I really love doing that.

Oh I miss those days so much! So peaceful!

And today as the Chinese new year holiday, in Jatibening, I can only stay at home and seat in front my laptop... might still doing this for the rest of the day! bored!

it's me again, God...

Dear God,
You throw me a golden ball and it goes strike
I think I'd fall and collapse
But You know me more than I do
If You think I'm ready then I shall be steady
You, as always, have your secret way
I, as I should, can only follow Your light
And I again, as your slave, need Your help more and more...

Dear God,
please help me to change

with the biggest love I have,
Your still-no-good servant.

oookay... nice to hear this!

quoted from my best friend Nita...



"u know marriage is about how to accept ur husband's weaknesses...lo ga bisa tuh nuntut terlalu banyak...it's all about working out together every single things, have to fight together to make things right..."

then...

"...but i sort of feel that probably when u FINALLY get married lo akan jauh ngerasa lebih tenang.....jiwa loe akan ngerasa lega deh pastinya...eventho problems will come like hell in the future, you'll have someone who's there for you...coba deh klo skrg, u just have to deal it alone, ga mgkn jg selalu ngandelin bonyok kan...iya gak mnrt loe???"

and...

"" man, all my friends udh punya someone to share, kapanpun mrk gundah bakal ada suami yg nemenin..."...pasti itu akan membuat jiwa loe tenang...eventho ur parents are always there for you yah, tapi kan beda rasanya sm pas loe masih kecil yg butuh ortu...biar gimana pasti lo berasa tenang deh,lega banget..."

I love you girl! Sucha a nice thought!

mon patron me demand de ne pas venir au travail.... :)

January 14, 2009. 5.48 AM

telephone ringing, the screen showed my boss's name

me : (just awake and set my voice so it sounded like I've woke up two hours ago) "Hallo! Yaa, kenapa Dok?"

boss : "Hallo Diana! Baru bangun kamu ya?"

me : (voice camouflage failed!) "eeehehhehehehehe... iya dok! Kenapa Dok?"

boss : "hujan lebat kan disitu?"

me : (try to catch the sound of rain but all I got was silence) "iya dok!"

boss : "udah hari ini nggak usah masuk aja. Saya udah telfon Nining sama Risma biar nggak usah masuk aja hari ini. Kalo hujan lebat gini biasanya pasien juga ngebatalin janji. Biar saya sama Rossi aja yang masuk, Rossi kan rumahnya deket."

me : *big grin... then biger... then very big grinnnnn!*
"Oooh..." (tried to sounded disappointed but I know I've failed again)
"Oke Dok! Makasih yaa Dooooook....." (at this point, I'm sure my voice sounds like I've woke up five hours ago and feel so overwhelmed!)

boss : "Yaaa... makasih yaa!"

me : "Yaaaa...."

boss : "Yuk daaaaah."

me : "Daaaaah........"


Then I went back to bed still with big grin on my face. Few seconds after, I heard the rain fall so my smile gets even wider! Superb!!!! Then I sang "I'm only happy when it rains" from Garbage in my head.

Have u ever meet a boss who kindly ask his/her employee not to go to work? hehehehe... well, am not my boss's employee coz we are "TS" (teman sejawat) or what we call "partner" in english. But still, I love my Boss!!!!!! hehehehehehehhehehehe..........

Stone Temple Pilots - "Trippin' on a hole in a paper heart"

Dont cut out my paper heart, I aint dyin anyway
Take a look at eye full towers
Never trust them dirty liars
Sippin lemon yellow booze `ole leadbelly sings the blues
All dressed up on wedding day keep on trippin anyway

I am I am I said Im not myself, but Im not dead and Im not for sale
So keep your bankroll lottery eat your salad day deathbed motorcade

Fake the heat and scratch the itch
Skinned up knees and salty lips
Ill breathe your life vicks vapor life
And when you binge I purge alike
Let go its harder holding on
One more trip and Ill be gone

So keep your head up
Keep it on, just a whisper Ill be gone
Take a breath and make it big
Its the last you'll ever get
Break your neck with diamond noose
Its the last you'll ever choose

I am I am I said Im not myself, but Im not dead and Im not for sale
Hold me closer, closer let me go let me be just let me be





* in love again with this song... somehow! :P *

I'm troubled

...because they always think I am. According to them I'm a rebellious impolite, childish, arrogant kid who never do things right.

Unfortunately, I guess they never think what has made me tagged that way. They have subjectively labeled me without sifting the causes, and never get bothered in finding the reason why I'm not that way when I'm out the house.

But if that is what they think I am, then I am what they think.
I was troubled, am troubled, and will always be troubled as long as they labeled me that way.

I love you mom and dad, in the way you would never understand...