Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Pengamen cilik


Kaki kecil telanjang itu melangkah masuk tiba-tiba ke dalam mikrolet yang berisikan tujuh orang di bagian belakang. Langkahnya terseok-seok menyeimbangi goyangan mobil, badan mungilnya berkali-kali terlempar ke bangku dan lutut-lutut penumpang. Tangan-tangan iba sekaligus gemas menggapai menahan badannya yang kurus, menahannya agar tidak jatuh. Bocah mungil itu dengan acuh terus berjalan hingga ke belakang mikrolet sambil membagi-bagikan amplop kepada setiap penumpang di belakang.

Seluruh mata yang memandangnya langsung mengirimkan sensor ke otak untuk mengeluarkan sejumlah uang pada anak kecil tersebut. Tiga perempuan dewasa menyodorkan uang kepada si bocah, sebelum dia membagikan amplop kepada mereka. "Bental!" tolak bocah perempuan itu, sekali lagi badan kecilnya terlempar ke bangku. Bibir-bibir tersungging melihat betapa lucunya anak ini, begitu kecil, mungkin hanya dua tahun umurnya. Sebagian kembali merogoh lembaran ribuan dan menyodorkan kembali pada si
bocah. "Bental! Bental!" kembali dia menolak, tangannya memegang kuat pada bagian mikrolet yang menopang kaca belakang, matanya menatap polos pada lampu-lampu malam jalanan.

"Ambil ni Dek, saya mau turun nih!" seru seorang perempuan yang duduk di dekat pintu. Tangan mungil itu menyambut lembaran biru yang kucel yang disodorkan untuknya. Ketiga perempuan dewasa yang sebelumnya menyodorkan uang kepada bocah kecil itu kembali memintanya untuk mengambil sedekah mereka.

"Bental...bental..." Bocah kecil itu tetap saja acuh, dan melihat keluar kaca belakang.

"Siapa namanya?" tanya salah seorang dari mereka.
"Ani."
"Ani, ambil ini. Ini dari tante."
"Bentaaal."
"Lho, kalo tante mau turun gimana? Ayo ambil."

Seketika kakaknya yang telah jauh lebih besar yang sedari tadi menyanyi di pintu mikrolet, memberi kode kepada si bocah untuk mulai memunguti lembaran-lembaran dari tangan-tangan penumpang karena mereka sudah harus turun. Bocah kecil itu pun langsung melakukan ritualnya, mengumpulkan amplop-amplop dan kembali berjalan gontai demi menjaga keseimbangan untuk keluar dari mikrolet.

Mata-mata terus memandanginya, dan sejumlah tangan memeganginya ketika ia hampir jatuh. Tapi mata lemah ini, justru memalingkan wajah menahan air yang sudah menggenangi kelopak menunggu untuk jatuh. Adik kecil... berapa umurmu? Sementara darah dagingku mampu hidup enak, bagaimana hidupmu? Kalau kuperbanyak sedekahku untukmu, serigala-serigala lapar di belakangmu akan semakin senang mempekerjakanmu. Tapi kalau tidak kuberi... apa kamu akan makan malam ini?

Air dari kelopak mata tidak mampu lagi tertampung. Seseorang akan diminta hisab atas penderitaan anak-anak itu!

Adik kecil... semoga kamu mendapatkan kehidupan yang jauh lebih baik di akhirat nanti.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

l'espoir



"O Allah, I surrender to U for every trial U give,
for every pain I feel,
for every hope I dream,
for tomorrow that is blur
I am clueless and lost,
stupid and weak
The last thing I can do is to surrender on U
I beg for Your blessing, Your clue, Your mercy"

Monday, May 19, 2008

changes...changes...changes... part two!



As I spoke about changes yesterday. A big change has happened on my closest friend, Deedee; she decides to wear hijab! If you know Deedee you wont ever believe that she would have a thought to wear hijab. She's so metropolis minded; workaholic, great spender for clothing and stuff, dress and look is very important, a lil hedonistic wont be a mater on her. No mater how, I respect her for every principal she hold.

The last few days she has been hunting me by a (disguise) reason to consulting her dental health, but then I finally found out that it's not about her dental health at all. She was in doubt to wear hijab. Deedee just got an awakening! She's been on her own battle to be a better Moslem's for some days ha ha ha... (and why the hell I laugh???) And now she's officially wearing hijab!

I salute Dee for her great step, this is a big revolution of her life. I know Dee so well. When she decides to enter something, she wont enter it only part by part but she will enter the whole part into it. We've got to salute her for that!!!

Congrates Deedee, and welcome to hijab, barakallahu lakum! love u before and more after now... huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!

As dee has made her big revolution on her life, whet have we done on ours?? *wink!*

Sunday, May 18, 2008

changes...changes...changes...

It's been two weeks since I'm sharing carbon diokside with Jakarta's and Bekasi's citizens again. I'm still adapting the new me with the old old home. But even it's old everything seems new again to me, except for the thin oxygen which is forced to collide with pollutions, and the sky that never looks clear and so blue; things that u wont ever meet at village.I know I've changed cause everyone must change by time, and with that I also know that everything at the old old home have changed as well.

Starting from my house. The last time I came home I still found my dad working from Sunday to Friday, a condition that I've accepted since I was born; my big sister wont get bothered to stay at home as long as everyone like and didn't get bother to take care about her new house, she also still not able to drive even for a little car so she will depend on me as long as I'm home; and mom, while my dad is at work she would let her self busy going out for shopping or french coursing or managing her lil store. But now my dad has retired from his job and except if he has something to do outside or just to take his grand children to spin around, he will definitely be at home. And my big sis can not stay at my parents's for too long coz she has moved in to her own house which she needs to look after, and she and her husband have bought a car too which she drives it anywhere while her husband is out of town, and now I'm the one who have to seat in the back... hehehehe. And mom, since my dad is always at home she takes care of my dad full time. And my lil sis, she was oredi and still at Bandung before and after I got back from Aceh.

HOw about my friends? I haven't meet any of my friends at jakarta since I'm back until today. Even that I'm still jobless I'm quite busy for hunting jobs hehehe... So I hanged out with my friends today. Some of these girls who used to hang out with me, to shopping with, to sharing bed with (sometimes), to let her self stay at my house or me to stay at hers... now all of these gurls are married. Even if we used to hang out just us with no spouse, today all of them brought their hubby, even some oredi brought offspring, or at least showed up with her big belly. I'm definitely OK with that, not that I get bother or what... really!

And almost all of these girls, I know with whom they used to date with. I know their spouse. But somehow I made a stupid mistake today...

So there's this deary, let just call her Annie, I know that Annie used to date Tom, it's been years. The last time we met, Annie Tom and I, was 6 months ago and they said they were preparing their marriage perhaps when Annie has return from her job contract at Sulawesi which was about to start or maybe even in the middle of it. And the last news I know about her is that she finally got married last week, I tried to come but since the reception is too far and it was at night and I didn't have any friend to accompany me so I didn't manage to came. And today when I met her, I wonder why she doesn't show up with her husband, whom I thought is Tom. Then I apology to her for not able to came on her wedding, then she introduced me to a guy who is sitting in front of her. This guy mentioned his name, and I ask "who's this?" but he and Annie just mention his name again. I left them and mingle with other and simply (or stupidly) thought that maybe he's her cousin or what and still wondering why doesn't she bring Tom, her husband.

Then after some hours, as they have another place to catch up, Annie and her companion permit to leave. And I naively (or stupidly!) ask her "where's your husband???" while her companion was just right behind her. Then she said with bug eyed, "this is my husband!" ...

Oh... really. I know everyone must change and so as well everything. But somehow, some changes are so so unpredictable, which mostly surprised me pretty choking. And there always something chocking every time I get home from Aceh hihihihi....

Dear God, I surrender to U for any changes U let happen on me and my surroundings in my future, nevertheless I will try to keep it on the way that is good to U.