everything happened by reason(s)

I met an old friend today, used to be one of my close friends years ago. She knew me when I had difficult character. And today we talk about that, the reason why I had such character, which she thinks it’s almost similar to her husband.

Though I’m not a shrink, but I have realized that in psychology is all about cause and consequence theory. We don’t get our character genetically, we gain it while we grow. How a person can be so lame or so hard, easy or difficult; it all happened by reason(s). And the main influence is from home, family at the first place, then friends or social life. Realizing or not, we must have affected our closest relative’s personality whom we meet everyday. And so do them to us. But the main affecting time is when we are still a kid until we are considered psychologically adult.

Since my job is being a doctor, all I know is that we only able to cure thing if we can find out what has caused it. And I also put that theory in psychology. There are causes why I’m being my self. My surrounding has built my character, and I allow it to be, so that’s how I become me. And do I satisfy with my own character? NO! So many reasons that make me hate my self. But no body is perfect in psychology; everyone has his/her own issues. And I have figured out what has caused mine, but still I can’t cure it. Coz again, I’m not a shrink. And even a shrink must have psychology issue!

But one thing for sure, I might not be able to cure my bad characters, but since I know what has made it I hope I wont heritage it to my offspring one day. Still need to learn a lot. And I think that’s what life is for, learn and work hard to be a better person….. or better offspring!

aphi aciid!

mimi males nulis yaaa, baca aja punya onyok!!!

mendadak teringat lagu lama...

LIKE A FRIEND (PULP)



Don't bother saying you're sorry
Why don't you come in
Smoke all my cigarettes again
Every time I get no further
How long has it been?
Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams
You take up my time
Like some cheap magazine
When I could have been learning something
Oh well, you know what I mean, oh
I've done this before
And I will do it again
Come on and kill me baby
While you smile like a friend
Oh and I'll come running
Just to do it again
You are the last drink I never should have drunk
You are the body hidden in the trunk
You are the habit I can't seem to kick
You are my secrets on the front page every week
You are the car I never should have bought
You are the dream I never should have caught
You are the cut that makes me hide my face
You are the party that makes me feel my age
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid
Like a plane I've been told I never should board
Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end
Let me tell you now: it's lucky for you that we're friends.

FEAR

"Routine leads to habit
Habit leads to need
Need leads to love
Love leads to commitment
Commitment is still my fear"